The “All About That Bass” singer and her husband Daryl Sabara welcomed Riley in 2021, but the boy struggled with breathing issues and was whisked off to the neonatal intensive care only seconds after she held him for the first time.

Trainor wrote in an excerpt of her book, Dear Future Mama, “The drugs kept me from panicking, but they didn’t keep my heart from breaking. I was alone, without Daryl or Riley, and I wasn’t sure if my baby could even breathe. Would he be okay? Would Daryl be okay, up there on his own with this crisis? The drugs and the stress made it seem like everything was happening in slow motion. I didn’t feel pain, but I could feel the sensation of every tool inside me. I felt and heard a suction tool up by my ribs. I could still smell my own burning flesh. I felt nauseous and light-headed, but the moment I mentioned it to the anesthesiologist, he made it go away.”

The Grammy winner told People that the events of the day gave her vivid nightmares that lead her to seek treatment for her mental health.

She told the outlet, “I would be in tears and tell Daryl [Sabara], ‘I’m still on that table, dude. I’m trapped there. I can’t remind myself I’m in bed and I’m safe at home. I had to learn how traumatic it was.”

Trainor added, through therapy, “I just worked through it.  Time heals all.”